As a note, the us military (U.S. Military), america/americans (America/Americans), have been purposely left lowercase, not to offend those who identify under these labels, but to express the contempt I feel for these entities in this specific context.    
At first it all seemed like just another charitable event, like many others, a good cause. However, learning more over the years, gaining a better understanding of indigenous communities on one end and the pursuits of the us military on the other, have led me to a point where I am now — feeling disgusted, sometimes depressed yet desperate to take action while at the same time remaining cautious that I, like my forbearers, don’t do more harm than good.